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Winne Phua Huini's
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July 27, 2008 @ 7:09 PM
hmmms.. first in my life time; ie find breathin's so tiring.. wanted to give up.. but still; im here. at that certain point of time; ie'd given up everything ie'd hold on. yet; life's still carries on for me. not everything will turn out to be wad ue want. ie wanted to let go; let go off everything. let go off all those pains&laughters. let go off him; them & them. but deep in my heart; ie dont wanna say goodbye. its tiring; to live; forget; forgive. to smile; cry; love & hate. its not easy to say goodbye.. for now; ie just wanna be wad ie am. doin things dat ie wont regret. live life till the fullest. till the day im supposed to sleep forever.. July 25, 2008 @ 5:30 PM
zzzz.... oh gosh; im dyin.. zzz.. simply feel like dyin now.. oh my.. still sick.. :/ hais.. wanna recover fast laas~ ie wanna go out!!!!!!! was tokin on the phone past few hours ago. later den tok on phone agn.. maybe gonna take a nice long nap now.. oh gosh.. im tok-in linklessly.. ahhs; god ahhs. dont make me go soooo crazy over him can? if its a big no no dat ie can be with him; den stop lettin me go dat crazy over him.. hais; will it/wont it? hais hais.. seriously damn obssesse with ue laas.. if dat's wad love is; :/ July 21, 2008 @ 5:12 PM
[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[: hmms.. really had been thinkin alot dis few days.. dunno for wad.. just know dat some stuffs ie shant bother ie go bother.. -.- now; phew~~~~ finally the weight's lighten [: although its not realli gone; but atleast im feelin damnn loads better [[[: morning; was okay. but dunno why suddenly feel damn awkward inside my heart. say des; he said ie recently damn odd.. yaas.. ie knoe.. hais.. den alot of things just kept poppin into my mind. damnn feel like cryin... went to find fs; but mrtan came.. zzz.. so; yaas.. tryin to pretend everything's alright during sat 2 periods. after dat.. ie seriously cant stand ler.. so when walkin aimlessly arnd; say des agn.. he told me to find the cause why im irritate/sth lidhat.. den dunno why; went into the toilet && cry ler.. lols.. was sms-in with des all the way.. atleast ie found a person & a fren dat's really true to me [[[: && yaas; eva,baby,fs,mavis,eva && mother re not excluded [: mavis suddenly pop-ed inside the toilet; made me cry more.. -.- lols; finally ie let down dat burden in my heart [: really thnx alot; desmondpoh XD if ue really nvr hear me out; ie think ie really gonna lose my own self. & ie know; frankness is wad ie shuld be. & kohfusheng; ue're a fren ie dont wanna miss [: sry for not tellin ue everything & etc. hope ue understand [[[: stupid evaliew; another big big thnx to ue too [[: if ue aint the one being there for me; ie wuldnt found my way out of all dis craps. && mother; ie seriously can hear ue when ue're tokin. LOLS~ XD ie hope & pray dat nth culd affect us. & let everything continue for a life-long time [[: hmms.. alot of things changed ler. && maybe will keep changin; to the better or worse. life's still goes on. shuldnt let any stupid stuffs get ue dwn. dont ever find life's meaning-less & stuffs. how colourful is uer life; is dependin on uerself; not anyone. dont live/die for anyone; life's YOUR'S NOT OTHERS. fate's in uer hands. dont ever give up on uerself. cos no others culd save ue; its all YOURSELF. held responsible for any consequences. dont blame/malign anyone. life has many diff turnin points. decide & choose the right one. dont regret & start to blame anyone or even god. once done; it will nvr be undone. [[[[[: really happy to realize there's ppl whom re always there [: really true to me. not twistin facts with me. tellin me dat ie shuld face the most fearful side of my heart. not escapin & pretendin everything's alright. im happy; really delighted dat ie found back my true self [: BEING TRUE IS WAD ONE SHULD DO. peeps like shimin will nvr be forget [[[[: July 18, 2008 @ 4:00 PM
hmms. life goes on as usual. sch's gettin borin as day pass... zzz.. seriously got no motivation to study. though n lvl's round da corner.. zzz... im just still thinkin as muchs things in my mind. or maybe its gettin more as day pass? hais.. just wanna dump all dis out of my mind.. dunno why.. my life; dont really seems to be too center with sumthings. findin everythings' fading && stuffs.. life doesnt seems dat colorful anymore; no more. for him; ie still hold on. & ie dunno why. its just aint dat simple to forget about him. ie've been like soooo crazy over him for how long ler siaas.. zzz.. he's not dat simple to be replaced && erased. im just toooo in love with him :X wad if one day; there's no more eternity love; but there's only eternity hatred; wad will dis world turn to? :/ hais.. too muchs negative thots.. causin me to be in such state.. blame my stupid mind.. -.- July 13, 2008 @ 6:36 PM
hmms. lols. kindly spam wadever sh*t ue wanna write. lols. ie dont feel pain. uhh no no [: im not chio nor pretty nor cute. so yaas; uer words dont affect me lors~ hmms.. dont wanna comment muchs. the earth's revolvin; everyone's changin. like ie said; its like a train trip. stop&&goes; alight&board. everyone has their DIFF destination. ue cant wish everyone to alight at the same stop with ue. maybe there may be a few person alightin&boardin the same stop as ue. so? once ue step out of the train; will be parted. dont wish for muchs. cos it gonna disappoint ue more. JUST HEAD FOR THE FINISH LINE; & tell uerself ue dint disappoint uerself will do. && no one can expect everyone to be frank with each other. there's no total frankness betwn each other. the only one dat ue're really frank is; UERSELF. dont try to give excuses sayin ue're dat frank with whoever or wad. think back. & dont avoid uer true self. there's 2 type of ppl in dis world. 1st; ue'd nvr done anything wrong; but everyone's blamin ue, a innocent criminal. 2nd; a person's dat's totally in wrong; but no one's find dat he/she's in wrong, a guiltily victim. hmms.. soo yaas. its nvr one's party fault. nvr had been. dont try to blame god; if not. everyone's will be fault-less. dont wanna comment muchs on anyone; like ie say; whenever ie post wad; is when ie wanted to post. not to praise or humilate anyone on purpose. although its my own blog; but wad for postin any post & leads to tongues waggin? yaas. ie wanna be my own self. girls; its not on purpose not to tell everything out. some stuffs ue just wanna let dat someone to knoe. or even somethings; ue just wanna keep it to uerself. dats all ie wanna say. its only a dat lil' bit of effort ue'd to made to explain. but why at times no one explain to each other? ever wonder why? its not anyone's fault ie can say. if really ue'd to blame; ie think its everyone's fault. wad for? makin everyone to bear a heavy cross on each other's back? wad for think back for everything dat who ever's in fault with. why not just look ahead && think of the future? im not tryin to push blames away or wad; but will thinkin back cures anything? though it gonna hurts when it heals too. but why not just let it go? if sittin dwn && tok our harts out will cure; why not? whenever anyone keeps silence; the other will keep in silence too. all ie can say is; even though it seems dat ie tell evrythng to dat someone; but there's still stuffs dat only ue guys knoe. do ue all realize? hmms.. fs says; only losers believe in let nature takes it course. make sense. hmms.. everyone has diff trust in diff ppl. diff ppl stands diff importance in each && everyone's heart. dont blame anyone for not trustin ue or wad. give it a real hard thot why dat someone's not trustin ue. ue can trust one real fast at the beginnin. but when one lost trust in ue; it's nvr gonna be easy to gain it back. ie've to mention agn; im not commentin on anyone. so dont try to put any silly thots in my words. lols~ July 5, 2008 @ 3:44 PM
hmms. ytd slept at my aunt's hse-y. just woke up not long.. zzzz.... was sms-in fusheng a few mins ago. damn tired laas~ later need to go dwn to shop; plus meetin mavis later at evening [: was tok-in with mavis ytd midnight. tok-ed quite long. slept at arnd 3am? lols; play-ed alot of games. XDD was thinkin of alot of things. everything gush-ed into my minds.. blowin up my stupid mind.. ]: sth are fragile. easily breaks && will nvr regain back. cracks && scars will always be there. once broken; nvr be back.. at points of time; its not a matter of holdin on. its a matter of lettin go. sth cant be hold on for long; cos everything'll change. sth cant be grab on too tight; cos eventually ue'll lose it. hais.. irritatin.. zzz.. July 4, 2008 @ 10:59 PM
CHRISTINA! UER NAME'S ON MY BLOG XDD was really lazy to update laas~ lols. only happenin[s] were ytd && today. YTD: wanna praise one teacher siaas. teach too well till ie wondered how he/she can get the phd :{ really love the lesson soooo muchs dat makes me dont feel like attendin [: lols. date-d josephine at point at 6pm to pass the novels & comics. after sch went to point with eva && desmond. ate kfc. desmond bought 5 kit kats which cost like $10? for dat youth day dunno wad charity.. zzz.. its EX LAAS~ den went hme cos got tuition. saw dannis; dat joker in my class XD && ie seriously hate my name!! grrrs.. head-ed to point agn after tuition; met josephine ler went hme agn.. zzz.. im like carryin 27 comics?! killin me....~ tok-ed to eva on the phone for quite long befure teachin my cousins hmewrk. den was stuck-ed into those comics dat ie read befure.. -.- TODAY: youth day~~~ was sooooo lookin forward to the performance [: culdnt rmb muchs. lols. the only thing ie rmb is: KOH FUSHENG SING TILL DAMN NICE LAAS~ SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI LEHS~ XDD was really jaw droppin to hear him sing XD soooo unexpected. wait; NIGELL KOR AHHS; UE ALSO SING TILL VARI WELL [: DONT ANGRIE LIAOS. :X ALWAYS THE PARRY IDOL WORS ~~~ XDD headed to amk hub with eva && des? ehhs; des left at the bus-stop. -.- left me && eva. lols. bought the shimmer shimmer glitter glitter eyeshadow [: den went walk-in arnd && tok-in craps. we were like wonderin will we get to see xtina && we DID saw her. rofl~ den headed to pizza hut as for her mum's treat. THNX AUNTIE~ den met xtina && went walkin arnd agn. finally decided to cabb-ed dwn to my hse-y here && slack. 6 plus all went hme. lols. poof; here ie am,, postin craps agn XD |