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Winne Phua Huini's
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Nothing you need to know.Me Myself & I. DON'T come visiting this blog if you ain't happy w me. Unless you just wanna stalk, welcome. DO try not to make too much noise here, I can't stand it. Thanks much ;D |
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May 9, 2011 @ 9:55 AM
Rantings. Oh well, had a nice looonnggg chat w Lovee ytd. Complained, nagged, rant-ed everyt to him. I realize Before he ORD, my time for him compared to others is 40/60. Which means I only acc him during the phone talks every weekdays nights & weekends. But now, it's 95/5, excluding my sch time, just my personal time. I knw it's a big portion, one may say tat I shouldn't put love in my life so importantly. But.. I just can't stop it. I'd rather 24/7 stay at his hse, playing games, watching random movies/cartoons, playing mj & etc. I just hate to get my butt of my confort zone.. & I knw I'd been lacking in my social life, I've been out hanging w my cliques like ages.. I'm just lazy, I knw I shouldn't be.. *Sigh* I'm just getting more & more self-centered, rather choose to close in & not open out.. Guess, family issues caused me to be this freak I am now... During the talk ytd w Lovee, I qtn-ed myself randomly, why do I depend on him so much? Why can I do the same things (gaming & etc) w him everyd, not dating at some shopping centres.. Is it becos of habit? I believed tat anyone will think tat I don't love him anym if I think tat everyt is habit. But, it's becos of me, loving him, tat's why everyt becme habit. For an example, if you don't love to do this thing, you will nvr allow it to becme a habit right? I'm happy, loved, becos our daily lives becme a habit, this is a prove tat we love each other, & not sick & tired of it. Enough of all the craps I'm ranting now. Ther's alot of things tat can't be mention here & seriously, words can't describe how I'm actually feeling. Just.. I guess, I've to pour out all my rantings to my rubbish bin now :D |